YOU, THE, GUY. You know, the one that feels nothing but pity for a fool like me. Yes you. I am here to declare defeat. You win, white flag and all. So, I think that's it... yeah that's it. HAHA THAT WAS POINTLESS =.-... Alright bye. Good luck, you lucky bastard. I seriously mean you're a lucky bastard. Bastard as in the not the scolding typ- ah... you get it.
Hey all, I'm going off to Angkor Wat, in Cambodia. Its gonna rock, I'm gonna bring back gifts, and I'm gonna super miss alot of everyone :) bye.
Given up.
I take back my post.. my previous one. Things changed today. I realise it always runs the same way. Blog about a problem, it'll solve SUPER QUICK. And I have no freaking idea why. Thanks Seeyin Marion Lena and ... Oh ya no more. Thanks... Your appreciate words I really. Rearrange it. haha.
Oh, I lost two friends, as in, we still hang out but I think they don't want to, deep down. Maybe they're finally getting sick of me, as expected, as all would be. Ah heck, they don't even visit my blog in the first place, how on earth would they know. Too lazy to visit it, not worth their time obviously. Their distancing themselves, and I try to get closer, only to have them be pushed further away. Soon, I expect we won't even say hi. Ha, how fucking pathetic. And to think we were the best of friends in March. What a load of fucking bullcrap is that. Now its all just scrap. There's nothing left. They have their own people now.
Hey, sorry need to rant about this. I've just been viewing my last time chat logs with my crush, which till today, hasn't worn off. In fact, it freaking grew stronger. Which makes me distance myself more. Anyway, smiled at how chatty we were last time, how, when she had to go out for her lessons, she said 'wanna sms?' and my heart lept. We chatted on sms, can still remember. We had about 167 messages in a month. Little, but enough for me. I locked them all, and I deleted the rest in order to make space for her messages. and then came the day I found out about her and her boyf. Hurt. Deleted her messages to force myself to move on. Instead, ha.. look where I've landed myself now. And now, because I found out, I can no longer bring myself to face her, or talk to her. And because of that, we're barely talking anymore. She doesn't know any of these... that's the best part. Once again there's no turning back, every step away from her I take makes my longing grow stronger. (wth where's all these english coming from -.-,... oh wait, its the song I'm listening to. Walk Away - Blue. Sorry felt the need to recommend something) Anyway, I totally dedicated my whole love life to her, and now its totally in her hands, but she doesnt know it. How I wish she and him would just... fall apart. How I wish me and her can maybe just revert back to who we were before, friends that smsed and chatted with each other. How I hope me and her would one day get together. How I wish, every single day, that I might just stand a chance. Nope, not one for me. How I wish i'll stop being so selfish... How I wish I can move on. Yet I can't. Is this obsession or an infatuation. I'm too young for love yet, so I gotta rule it out. I don't even know her well, how can I like her so, damn, much. Everynight I think of her. This, sucks.
Recently life is having its ups and downs. One, I can't figure my bestfriend out :(... BUT, will still remain my bestfriend. Today had Sec 3 Orienteering Course, it was cool. 2 things, I HATE being 'suaned', can't fucking take it. Second, I'm like so damn happy cause I finally am able to to talk to someone who I havent been talking to for like a freaking few months. GOOD HUH!